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| Sarah Elizabeth Campbell and John Prine |
Okay, so all the songs written about me aren't tragic. Here is one written by Daniel Ruddick in 1991 called "Christina's Magic." I actually named my company after the song and it held that name for many years.
Christina’s Magic
She sent Billy Doss from somewhere near Waco
He gave me a message from the lady Christine
Just like a snake I slipped from my past
Rode down on the back of a gold eagle’s wing
We landed in Austin then out of the shadows
Like a dervish she swirled and danced in my dreams
Christina slips off her synthetic see-through
And takes me to places I’ve never been
We ride on the slipstream, me and Christina
I told her I’ve loved her for lifetimes it seems.
She weaves her magic on a desert mandala
Her cluster of blessings are hidden by pain
Dark angel’s hair rolls down streaked like sunset
Lips sliced like peaches drive me insane
Standing on crystal here at the crossroads
Waiting for lightening to strike twice again
Christina’s magic is old and it’s ancient
My mother of mercy brings new life to me
We ride on the slipstream, me and Christina
I told her I loved her for lifetimes it seems
Thunder clouds gather
Christina’s passion drives tears from heaven
Down to the sea
The scarlet red dawning dances on trinkets
Treasures Christina has left for me
Christina’s magic is old, very ancient
My mother of mercy brings new life to me
We ride on the slipstream, me and Christina
I told her I loved her for lifetimes it seems
Written by Daniel Rudick, August 20, 1991, 8:00 am
Recognizing, acknowledging and honoring our path is a lifetime commitment. Anyone that has spent any amount of time in therapy knows that we have relationships with people who mirror ourselves and the relationships we have with our parents. One of the most frustrating things in the world is feeling something painful and having other people tell you that you shouldn’t be upset. That has been the message I received for the majority of my life. I've read "The Secret" several times over, I should have it all figured out, right? In some areas of my life I do. I have excellent parking karma. Animals and children love me. I can make a yard come alive in the blink of an eye. Relationships are a different story. I mirror the one I experienced as a child. The one I was told to overlook. I have seen the law of attraction work for so many and it seemed to be working against me. Finally, last week I heard Esther Hicks say that if you strongly affirm something verbally, but you don't really believe it in your heart, you are actually working against yourself. It's like you are arguing with yourself and digging your heals in. I get that. I'm a bull... I dig my heals in. So my birthday gift to myself this year is to really acknowledge my beliefs and to continue healing that part of myself that, in the past, didn't feel heard. Family dynamics are a funny thing. I urge you to take a look at yours and if there is an imbalance, acknowledge it. The day after I had that "Ah Ha moment" I woke up with this poem in my head, it was around May 12, my birthday. I'd had a dream about a family member that had really hurt me numerous times over the years and not only did they not acknowledge it, I was expected to accept their behavior and I did for years! And since nobody acknowledged that it was happening, an apology wasn't in order. That was until I finally stood my ground and acknowledged what an unhealthy situation it was for the whole family. I assumed they cared about me as much as I cared about them therefore these atrocities couldn't be occurring.... well they were. I thought they would always be there for me, only to realize they never were there for me at all. Acknowledgement of the truth is key. We all need to know that we are seen and heard and
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